The moment I opened the newspaper the other day and read the headline "The Travis Murder," my head was spinning. I was quite upset and memories after memories flashed through my mind. Pain that was inflicted on me at the hands of others and pain that was inflicted on me at the hands of others and pain that was inflicted upon me by myself.
After that painful event happened in August of 1979, it was really hard living here. My little sister found no choice but to quit school, my brother Terry (who did not have anything to do with it, was not even living here) couldn't even come back to visit without being followed and harassed by our local police.
One time he was going to move back here to be close to us and the mayor at that time wouldn't even rent to him. We were labeled trouble makers. Do you know what it feels like to walk into a restaurant and a group of people look up and whisker loud enough for you to hear, "That's a Bussard, her brothers killed that guy," or try to rent an apartment and you walk in to pay your deposit and a group of people are there and they ask you if your brother was the one who killed that guy, and refuse to rent to you? What about years later when you have your own children and they endure the same thing, they were labeled and they were not even born at the time it happened.
For years, I hung my head embarrassed by what happened. I went through counselor after counselor, was depressed and angry and ashamed, not to mention all the other things I turned to to block out the memories of the past. I tried everything I could think of to block out the pain. I read every self-help book, went to lots of different self help meetings to get some kind of help from all the ick I carried deep within.
Then, one day, I was on my knees praying, crying for help to the only true thing that can help you overcome anything, Jesus Christ.
He cleansed me and healed me from all the ick. He gave me a new heart and forgave me all my sins. I can hold my head up now, I don't need to go to a self help book. I can go to God's word, his Bible and find all my answers to every question there is. I now turn to Jesus to comfort me during difficult times like this.
I am telling you the truth, Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. He is the answer to everything. He will heal you from all your pain. If he will do it for me, he will do it for anyone, all you have to do is ask. Our God is an awesome God!
So, something good came out of this for me. I was reminded of all the wonderful things God has done for me in the last six years. Wonderful things I could never do for myself. He has given me eternal life, he has given me peace, he has given me a whole new life. Sure, bad things happen to good people; they always will, but when you have Jesus, he will help you through them. Jesus, the great comforter, counselor, Prince of Peace.
So I will continue to look up and pray for those who persecute me. If God is for me, who can be against me.
Thank you, Mr. Sehnert, for reminding me of all the Lord has done for me. I will continue to glorify God and not allow Satan to win this one.
Cathy Bussard Bolles,