Continuing on from a blog entry a bit ago, I was waiting for results from the biopsy that I had have. The results came back 'clean'. Whew. My provider called and on her message told me to 'take a breath.'
That I did. I took several because it lifted a weight. What the whole experience did for me was show me how others react to the goings on. Now, I am not going to go into details on that but it illustrated to me how I have to approach such matters in the future.
I have said before I will be honest with my family in regards to this stuff. I was. I had to be honest at work because there really isn't a choice there either. I had to explain to the boss why I needed a day off. You can't really sit at your desk and greet people if you have to have ice pack on your chest area. Okay, that is funny at least to me anyway.
What I have now is paying for the cost of 'peace of mind.' I knew the financial 'ouch' was coming. Having worked in hospital billing, I knew these tests were not cheap. We have insurance but there are the deductibles and co-pays that have to be met. I am grateful for having insurance but I am second guessing if I should have even had the test done.
On one hand, things were fine, but on the other hand, what if they hadn't been. Next time, will I ask more questions? Will I wait longer before having tests done? I can't honestly answer those either.
I am grateful I had such great family support and I appreciated all the prayers, supportive posts and emails. This was a bump in the road and perhaps it was a trial run for other things. I don't know at this point. I will have to wait and see.